Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Just Breathe

Tonight I feel like half of my heart is sleeping somewhere else.

Tonight is the night that my sweet baby girl C is getting wired up, plugged in and monitored by some very smart people.  (Including my dear husband R, keeping guard nearby for the night.)  Seems that C's been taking mini-breaks in her breathing while she sleeps, and this has the docs curious enough to order an overnight sleep study to see what her little body's up to.

While these docs have assured us that there's most likely nothing to worry about, forgive us for being a little hypersensitive in these matters.  In the past ten months, we've seen not one, not two, but three families lose their young children, most recently a child just three days younger than A...while he slept, for a reason no one could have known until it manifested itself one night in a terrible, irreversible, cruel way.

So we're breathing.  And trying to find answers to the questions we don't even know how to ask.

And for my sweet C, whose bedtime routine I missed terribly tonight:

Mommy loves you,
Daddy loves you,
Grandmas and Grandpas love you,
Aunts and uncles and cousins love you,
And A loves you.
So God bless Mommy, God bless Daddy,
God bless Grandmas and Grandpas,
God bless aunts and uncles and cousins,
God bless friends who go on long walks with us,
God bless A,
and God bless C.
Sweet dreams tonight, big girl.


  1. Hugging and blotting tears. And hugging. Thinking of you.

  2. Oh, so difficult! I hope you sleep well tonight! I hope and pray that everything is fine! My heart breaks for the families you mention - and now I'm going to go check on my little ones one more time!

    Anna from Motherly Law

  3. It will be okay! She will have watched movies, had a snack and snuggled in. It is hard to be away though, Hubby had that problem when we did Boo's too.

    Thinking of you, hoping for good news!